I'm childless at 42 and haunted by the baby I aborted at 18
By KATE SPICER Published: 22:34 BST, 25 April 2012 | Updated: 10:54 BST, 26 April 2012 270 View comments Kate Spicer wonders if she should have become a teen mum instead of aborting her baby" class="blkBorder" /> Regrets: Kate Spicer wonders if she should have become a teen mum instead of aborting her baby Setting out from my home in sleepy Devon, I catch the bus into the nearest big town , where none of the chemists know my family, and buy two expensive pregnancy tests . It’s the summer holidays after I’ve left school and perhaps my periods have stopped because I’ve been anxious about my A-level results. Or perhaps not. My suspicions that I am pregnant go beyond a missed period: I feel queasy in the mornings. The pregnancy tests are positive. I run a deep bath, as hot as I can stand it, and drink neat gin until I am sick. It says something about my teenage ignorance that I have resorted to an old wives’ abortion technique from the 19th century. The onl...